urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:terrysnterrysnterrysnterrysn2007-04-23T03:42:56Zurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:terrysn:1485Need to Vent2007-04-23T03:42:56Z2007-04-23T03:42:56ZMy boyfriend is such an asshole! I dont even know what is wrong with him or why im even still dating hiim. My parents have been telling me for forever to break up with him. And even my dad thinks hes an ass hole. I dont know why I even let him upset me anymore. I should be used to it by now. We've been together for almost 2 1/2 years. He has so many double standards it is ridiculous. He cant let things go and forget it. He brings up past shit all the time. So why do I even try? He does nothing but upset me. I guess thats good because then I eat nothing at all. Last time he upset me that bad my parents almost sent me to treatment. He's even got me cutting again. I havent cut in 5 years! What the hell am i doiing? I just need to drop him like a bad habit.urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:terrysn:1166?2007-04-23T00:50:06Z2007-04-23T00:50:06ZSo I've been doing so good all week working out! I switched it up yesterday and did Pilates and Aerobics and I was so sore this morning when I woke up! But its okay, b/c at least I know its working. And I also did a 2 mile run with my friend this morning. <br /><br />But I guess all that really doesnt matter. I did good for breakfast and lunch (just a bottle of water and and few bites of sushi). But then I come home from work, and once again my brother practically forces a piece of pizza and 2 cinnamon sticks down my throat! Ahhhhhh! Y does he keep doing this to me. Its so hard to stay on track with him around. He can eat whatever he wants and not gain a pound. He'll actually lose weight with absolutely no effort whatsoever!urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:terrysn:921wtf!2007-04-20T04:17:01Z2007-04-20T04:17:24ZSiaDamn it! y is it that i can go all day w/o eating a thing and be completely ok with it and then as soon as night time comes around i binge like crazy. im so fucking fat and yet i still eat! what is wrong with me? i guess it doesnt help that my brother comes home everyday with a different type of fast food or some type of donuts or other unhealthy foods. i wish he would stop getting me food and i wish he would stop making me feel like i have to eat it. is that too much to ask???urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:terrysn:564Ahhhhh!2007-04-18T00:50:34Z2007-04-18T00:50:34ZSo I was doing good all day today and then I had to go and eat a bunch of sushi. I ate way too much today! What is wrong with me! i have absolutely no control whatsoever! Tomorrow I'm going to do 2468 and do that for a few cycles. and im going to start working out way more than i have been!