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Tuesday, December 29th, 2009

am_i_thin [ bazaarbees ]

6:39p What are all of your safe foods? And what weird combinations do you like?

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am_i_thin [ x_ashm_x ]

10:59p Wee Bitta Thinspo. ( . . . )

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am_i_thin [ financegrl23 ]

5:30p I literally feel beyond disgusting right now. This is the feeling I have to remember after I eat. So I have been so frustruated lately with the scale because everytime I don't eat I was still gaining weight. I figured it was before my period and that was why. So when I got my period today I was so happy but now I am the most depressed I've been in forever and I'm in disney world epcot. Yesterday I was in magic kingdom and I was doing ok I had salad for lunch and no dinner. I didn't go down a pound. I have been restricting for a while and the scale wasn't going down I was so so so frustruated. Anyway I had a few bites of fruit this morning and I was doing fine until comes 4pm when I was ravenous. I have been with my family a lot so it has been hard to dodge meals but this meal I didn't want to dodge. I was soooo completely famished no amount of diet coke or coffee was quenching this hunger. So we decide to get mexican bigg mistake huge. I ordered some taco salad in like a tortilla which was the closest thing to healthy even though it wasn't. I figured I'd pick at the lettuce and stuff. Not only did I eat the whole probably 2000 calorie thing but I even kept eating it when I was full. Then not only did I have period cramps but I had severe stomach pains. I'm not used to eating that much. I got so extremely depressed I couldn't be around people or anyone. I left epcot at 430pm because of how obese I felt. I couldn't bare to have people looking at me. I am waiting for my bus back to the hotel now. My stupid thoughts ruined my day. It ruins everyday. When I step on the scale, Eat, or don't eat I'm still depressed. Always. Its disgusting. I couldn't stay in the park. My gut is bulging. The scale keeps going up. Guys I just can't take this cycle anymore everyday weighing depression self hate. I'm going out of my mind. Now I'm going to go step on the scale and get my huge fatass of a number and then lay under the covers in the hotel and cry. After my period I better be back to 112. Today I was 116. This is a nightmare

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am_i_thin [ x_ashm_x ]

9:38p I have eaten far too much today. But Im not going to moan cus that wont change anything. Instead I am going to do yoga and as many sit-ups as my body can physically do. I went on the Wii fit earlier which was good. I wish I could go for a run but it's late here and dark. I would love to run and run and leave all the calories behind me. Anyways, tomorrow is a new day and I am going to do better. I am going shopping so will be out of the house for ages, and have housework to do before that so that will keep me busy. Hope everyone had a good day, Much love Ash xxx current mood: blank current music: Shakira - She Wolf

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am_i_thin [ pixieme ]

8:58p Diet Pills?? Any advice on diet pills? do they supress ur appitite and what ones r the best? Sorry if I offend anyone with these question I know how sum people feel about diet pills and lax but Im at my wits end! please just help me this once. I took senokot last nite, Im still waitin on the effects, first time ever usin Lax........NOT IMPRESSED!! Im fuckin sick of this countin numbers and always thinkin of the best way to lose the weight! Worryin about who's gonna make me eat next, forget the diet pills maybe I shud b lookin for anti depressants :o( xx

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am_i_thin [ 1daythin_catie ]

2:43p I DID IT Y'ALL WOO I DID IT!!! I reached my first goal weight haha heck yes!! Im finally 95Lbs again and NOTHING is gonna screw it up this time! Im gonna get lower! Now im just 2 more pounds away from my second goal weight 93lbs. I hope everyone is doing great, I know I am!! :D. I love ALL of you!!!!! :D Stay Strong!!!(: current mood: ecstatic current music: He's In Dallas- Reba McEntire

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am_i_thin [ koda91 ]

2:39p hello, I'm new to the site. I've stayed from ana and my goals a lot this year, but I'm back. I feel it more than ever. The only difference is that I'm gonna try the support thing. I have confidence it will help me stick to my goals. I really need friends, so add me please. Any tips or tricks for my first day? I could really use some. I've already took a diet pill that suppresses my appetite, I use to use it all the time. I've started my morning with a large glass of water. Mmmmm no calories. :)  by the way if anyone was wondering my profile pic has been my #1 thinspo. I just love that picture.

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am_i_thin [ mybodymyrules ]

8:36p Hi my names lee my stats are h:5'6 cw:121 hw:160 lw:114 gw1:120 gw2:115 and so on. i hope you all had a good xmas, i binged all day but since then i've lost 5 pound so i am happy for now. can't to running tomorrow. *stay strong*

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am_i_thin [ gone89 ]

10:10p so i found out something....and its not something i read- its happening to me currently. the less u eat....the less u eat. and im assuming vice versa... yea i think so...i remember back in the day- lol - i hate that expression- when i used to pig out, i actually used to eat more and more. like it wouldnt stop at one time. it would be a cycle of more food over more food. yuck. now im just ... i dunno.. im losing my appetite coz im barely thinking of food and i cant be bothered. the less im eating, the less im eating the next day. and its not like im trying even. i guess thats the way your appetite is. just dont make a fuss out of it and worry over every bite i suppose. but do watch your carbs coz they will make u crave food ( due to sugar release and all that ) . i stick to veg. and protein and i think thats whats keeping me from ... well..i dunnoo.. making food the main highlight of my day i suppose. good luck to u all ladies and i hope u all have a wonderful evening. <3

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am_i_thin [ takeabreath123 ]

1:03p top secret awesome workout Hey all, So I wanted to share what i've found out to be an awesome total body workout.....rock climbing!  especially bouldering.  My bf is a climber and works at a rock climbing gym, and I started going all the time.  It gets every single muscle in your body.....ones you didn't know you had.  I haven't found anything else that makes me feel like I'm really working out everything.  And I've definitely lost weight, I was 145+ at the beginning of the month and I was down to 137 yesterday.  Woo hoo!  It's really good for your core, so you feel strong and thin in the abs.  And as an added bonus, most of the people that go to the rock gyms (at least where I live in CO) have amazing bodies, SUPER slim and toned, so that's good thinspo while you're working out!  Just thought I'd share this little tidbit....if you've never tried it give it a go if you can! Noelle current mood: Jittery

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am_i_thin [ imlivinginside ]

12:10p I'm not sure if the pictures worked on the last post, so here's a new one...and please comment :( 11:54 pm: monday, december 28, 2009 Ahh the new year is quickly approaching, and I'm sure there will be lots of new year resolutions...I need to sit down and carefully think about what I plan to do. ;) Fun, fun...Anyhow, I decided to take pictures this evening since I already had the camera out and it didn't matter to me. current weight=132.0 Please comment, heck I don't normally do this, and please don't lie or just be nice. I NEED to hear the truth, it's the best motivation to me BY FAR. And to me it is a positive thing if you leave a negative comment on my body. However, I'm not like "Grr, I've GOT to change that now now NOW!" I'm more like "Okay so this is really what any person would think of me. Am i happy with it or not? If not, then I want to make it better." Nothing too obsessive in my mind...of course i still am a little though lol ( pictures... )

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am_i_thin [ greenxteaxlove ]

11:23a "Deadweight" Breakfast is the easiest meal for me to skip. But it's also the one I shouldn't. (Metabolism and healthwise). So from now on, I'm going to have a piece of fruit or a low cal breakfast bar in the mornings. That will also ensure that I actually take my vitamins. I can make up for the calories by not eating as much at dinner, especially since I'll be going back up to college soon :) . I've slowly been eating less and less at dinner so my parents don't notice such a big drop-off from my former binge/purge nightly meals. Also I was a lazy bum this morning and couldn't get myself out of bed to workout. Our heating system is whacked so it was about 45 degrees in my basement (it's 19 windchill at the moment outside, and this is all in fahrenheit however you spell that). So it was just impossible for me to get my fat ass out of bed. I figure I'll work out tonight when I get home from work. Can't wait til back to college when I'll have more time during the day to schedule in gym sessions :) Haven't been on the scale yet today, I figure I'll do a weigh in tomorrow morning. 100 cal (a banana) intake so far. Love to you all, and apologies, I'm going to start being better about commenting on others' posts :) xox - Alice current music: Deadweight - Beck

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am_i_thin [ financegrl23 ]

11:22a Did anyone see the documentary last night on the anorexic girl cutting herself? It was on the a and e channel not sure if everyone gets that channel.

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am_i_thin [ 4_sheryl_4 ]

12:09p 3 days before the start  Bought a Sony Ericsson and I love it! I put there some thinspiring photos and now it's absolutely perfect for motivating me. ^^ So I have only three days before my diet starts. Any tips for the very possible bad days? It will be a 155 day's project, just counted.. From 1/1/2010 to 5/6/2010, the graduation day of my friends. Today I'm going shopping with my bf. Weird?? : D Have a successful day!

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am_i_thin [ bazaarbees ]

12:42a Does anyone live in Los angeles? I'm near echo park, and I want someone I can see in person. I could use a friend right about now Let me knowww:) Best luck to you loves<3

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